Yes I'm still waiting for that letter to tell me whether or not I got accepted into CCC. I hate this waiting game, it's such a pain. I actually tried calling up at the college today to see if I could find out anything but no one answered the phone so they may not be there today. I just would really like to know so that I can plan my life, you know. At this point, I'm kind of preparing myself for the worst. I would like to think that I got accepted but I honestly don't know and I figure it's better to be prepared for the worst. I was thinking a lot today about what I could do if I don't get accepted and I have found a couple options.
I could find another job pretty much doing what I'm doing now but get paid twice as much and it would be full time. I actually like this idea because I'm getting to the point where I'm tired of school, ready to be done with it and I don't really want to go back. I did finish up with my last exam yesterday so I am officially out for the summer, Yay! So with that said, I'm kind of like well if I don't get in then that was my last classes forever because I don't see myself applying again in the future. This has been such a hard, stressful year and a half and I just don't feel like going anymore. On the other hand, I'm also like but I've come so far, and worked so hard that it would be a total bust if I just gave up now. So I don't know what I want to do right now. I guess it really all just depends on that stupid letter I'm supposed to be getting in the mail anytime now. If I get accepted then I will go into the program no doubt. If I don't get accepted then I will find a full time job, either in a doctors office or at a hospital. I would probably work full time for a year and then maybe possibly apply again. I'm just ready to start my life and get working so I can make money. I'm tired of this living off of 50 dollars a week thing. I feel old too because I am 23 years old, I should be working, finding my soul mate, blah blah blah.
My sister was telling me the other day that if she were me she would be worried about finding a boyfriend and getting married. I'm just not worried about that right now, it's like totally not a priority for me at the moment. Honestly it's not really a priority at all for me. I kind of like being single it's nice not having to worry about anyone else and being able to just take care of yourself and what not. You know where your money is going and most of the time it's on things you want or like to do. You know, if I find a guy that sweeps me off my feet then maybe I will consider getting married. Oh and don't get me started on kids, that's the other thing. I'm not too sure I actually want kids, they are cute and all but boy are they a lot of work. My cousin has twin girls and I've been in their life since day one, so I've been able to watch them grow up. My family tends to watch them quite often so the mom (my cousin) can go out, so I know what it is like having kids. It is a lot of work, they take a lot of effort and exhaust you.
I would love to travel yet in my lifetime, so having a family isn't really ideal to me yet. There are so many places that I would love to travel to but I can't do that with kids and a husband who may or may not like to travel. Anyway enough with my little rants, I will go and continue to wait for my future life letter so to speak.
Peace & Love
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