25 Random Questions

It's late at night and I'm waiting for pain meds to kick in so I can sleep so what better way to waste time then do a 25 random question post? Here we go:

25 Questions :

1. Do you have any pets? 

Yes I have 1 dog named Brandy. She is a cocker spaniel which we think is mixed with a long haired chihuahua. Very weird combination but I promise she is the most adorable thing in the world! 

 
2. Name 3 things that are physically close to you.

My nightsand, pillows, my laptop 

3. What's the weather like right now?

Warm and kind of humid. Starting to feel like summer! 

4. Do you drive? If so have you crashed?

Yes I've been driving for 7 years now! I have had fender benders, nothing serious. I did crash my mom's car once with my whole family in it, but again nothing serious. 

5. What time did you wake up this morning?

I got up at 6am because my whole family went to Hershey Park today! 

6. When was the last time you showered?

Yesterday, I need to take a shower tomorrow morning, since I was out in the rain all day today. 

7. What was the last movie you saw?

Jumping the Broom: good movie, but I have to say I was very exhausted when I saw it so I was dozing in and out through most of the movie. But it was a very funny movie! 

8. What does your last text message say?

Probably from my sister, something about a ride she was on since we were just at Hershey Park. 

9. What's your ringtone?

My phone is almost always on vibrate since I work and I don't like my phone going off every minute because of a text message. 

10. Have you ever been to a different country?

No but I really want to..check out my post titled Bucket List. 

11. Do you like sushi?

No, although I haven't honestly tried it, just the thought of eating raw fish sounds nasty. 

12. Where do you buy your groceries?

Giant mostly or Harris Teeter. 

13. Have you ever taken medication to help you fall asleep faster?

Just when I'm in pain and I can't fall asleep because of the pain. I usually don't have problems falling asleep because I just can't sleep. 

14. How many siblings do you have?

just my sister but I have a lot of really close friends who I consider family. 

15. Do you have a desktop computer or a laptop?

A laptop, easier to use when traveling and I can have it with me when I'm downstairs. 

16. How old will you be turning on your next birthday?

24, crazy how old i'm getting! 

17. Do you wear contacts or glasses?

I wear contacts during the day and glasses right before bed. 

18. Do you color your hair?

I get highlights, so half my head is colored. 

19. Tell me something you are planning to do today.

Well I went to Hershey Park with my family and my sister's friend. That took up most of the day, Now i'm getting ready to go to bed! 

20. When was the last time you cried?

A couple nights ago because I was in so much pain :( 

21. What is your perfect pizza topping?

Just cheese, but I don't eat pizza very often, if at all. 

22. Which do you prefer-hamburgers or cheeseburgers?

Cheeseburgers definitely! 

23. Have you ever had an all-nighter?

Yup, I'm in college, it's pretty common. 

24. What is your eye color?

Hazel green. It kind of changes everyday so today it's hazel green. 

25. Can you taste the difference between Pepsi and Coke?

yes I can. I like coke better than pepsi but I will drink either one. 

The Feeling of a Zombie

For the past month I have been having trouble with ear pain. I went to the ER probably 3 weeks ago and they said it was pressure in my inner ear, so I've been taking sudifeed and they gave me high dose of pain pills. Well normally this has been working for me but not last night. It started around 10:30 pm and my ear started to hurt so right away I took 2 sudifeed and 1 of my pain pills. That seemed to help for a little bit, so I decided to watch a movie before going to bed. Well around 1:30 am, my ear started to hurt really bad again. Now I can't take any more sudifeed for another 2 hours and my pain pill for another 3 hours, so what was I supposed to do? Well, I ended up trying to just deal with it and bear it because I really didn't want to overdose myself. That lasted for about half an hour and I started crying because I was in so much pain. I ended up taking another sudifeed, and 2 Tylenol. Again, nothing worked I was still in excruciating pain. Now it was 2:30 am and I still had yet to fall asleep, despite being exhausted. I ended up just laying there in bed for another two hours hoping for something to kick in and for the pain to stop. Well, 4:30 came and went and I was still awake, and still in pain. So I went back downstairs to see what else I could possibly take to make the pain stop, I ended up taking another one of my pain pills in hopes that it might work this time, which it didn't. 6:00 am came and I was so tired and just wanted to sleep and for the pain to stop. I got my computer out and Goggled how to cure ear pain at home. They said to put olive oil in your ear (just a couple drops) and luckily we had some downstairs. So I went downstairs again, got some olive oil on a Q-Tip and stuck it in my ear a couple times. I went back upstairs and laid down with that ear up for about an hour. I don't know if it helped but it felt funny and I wanted to think that it would help. Well around 8:00 my ear FINALLY started to stop hurting and I made myself go to sleep. I got about 3 hours of sleep before my mom comes in and tells me to wake up. So now my ear is full of olive oil, hurting again, and I feel like a zombie from all the pain pills and no sleep. It is going to be a very interesting day!

Peace & Love

I DID IT!

I got accepted into MC's PTA program!!!!! Okay so yesterday I got the mail and there was a paper saying I had a large envelope at the post office waiting for me. I was like hmmm, I wonder what that could be because I wasn't expecting to get into MC's program at all. See I had taken this test that we were supposed to take in order to be qualified to get in but I didn't do very well on it. I applied for the program anyway since I had all my classes done and I had applied last year too. This school was definitely not my first choice school considering the neighborhood that it is located in. However, since I did get accepted into the program, I will go because it would be incredibly stupid of me to not go, considering how hard it is to get into these programs.

Now I have to go get a complete physical done, have a background check done on me and take a drug test. All of which I should pass with no problems but it's not a lot more work that I have to do this summer that I didn't think I was going to have to do. This is all so crazy, I mean I seriously did not think I was going to be accepted into this program. I'm super excited and proud of myself but I'm also like very nervous and scared. The drive to this school is on one of the most busiest highways in my state so it's going to be a hike and a half driving up there everyday. OMG I'm just completely floored right now, this is so surreal! I finally did it! All my hard work and all this planning for the past year and a half finally paid off, it's something that I thought was never going to happen. I am just so amazed at how things have turned out. I mean leave it to me to get accepted at the one school that I didn't really want to go to and not get accepted to the school that I did want to go to. But non the less, I am officially a PTA student at MC as of 9:15 this morning!

Peace & Love

What is Meant to Be

Well I got that letter...and I didn't make it :( Doesn't say why I didn't make it it just says I wasn't selected. It makes me more mad than sad, I mean I put so much hard work into trying to get accepted this time around and I still didn't get in. I had everything that they needed plus 5 years of experience, you'd think that would be enough. I have a feeling that all the spots went to in county students and since I am out of county I was put on the back burner. So there goes my hope of becoming a PTA I think, I don't think I'm going to try again in a year but we shall see. I'm getting to the point where I'm tired of school and I just want to work now so maybe that's a sign saying I'm not meant for this job after all. A lot of people are asking if all these past classes that I took were a waste of my time and I don't think so. I don't regret taking any of them, I learned a lot and I definitely can take the knowledge wherever I may go.

So now my job hunting begins, I'm looking for a full time job in the health care area. I'm looking at hospitals, doctor offices, that kind of thing. I already applied for a job with the oncology center at a hospital near me. Maybe that is where I am supposed to be, I don't know where I'm going anymore. It's so hard not knowing what you are anymore. I have been described as a future PTA student for the past year and a half and now all of a sudden I'm nothing again. I'm getting ready to leave for work soon, so this will be interesting to see what all my patients have to say about the matter. I know a lot of people are going to be mad that I was selected.

Peace & Love

waiting is for the Pits

Yes I'm still waiting for that letter to tell me whether or not I got accepted into CCC. I hate this waiting game, it's such a pain. I actually tried calling up at the college today to see if I could find out anything but no one answered the phone so they may not be there today. I just would really like to know so that I can plan my life, you know. At this point, I'm kind of preparing myself for the worst. I would like to think that I got accepted but I honestly don't know and I figure it's better to be prepared for the worst. I was thinking a lot today about what I could do if I don't get accepted and I have found a couple options.

I could find another job pretty much doing what I'm doing now but get paid twice as much and it would be full time. I actually like this idea because I'm getting to the point where I'm tired of school, ready to be done with it and I don't really want to go back. I did finish up with my last exam yesterday so I am officially out for the summer, Yay! So with that said, I'm kind of like well if I don't get in then that was my last classes forever because I don't see myself applying again in the future. This has been such a hard, stressful year and a half and I just don't feel like going anymore. On the other hand, I'm also like but I've come so far, and worked so hard that  it would be a total bust if I just gave up now. So I don't know what I want to do right now. I guess it really all just depends on that stupid letter I'm supposed to be getting in the mail anytime now. If I get accepted then I will go into the program no doubt. If I don't get accepted then I will find a full time job, either in a doctors office or at a hospital. I would probably work full time for a year and then maybe possibly apply again. I'm just ready to start my life and get working so I can make money. I'm tired of this living off of 50 dollars a week thing. I feel old too because I am 23 years old, I should be working, finding my soul mate, blah blah blah.

My sister was telling me the other day that if she were me she would be worried about finding a boyfriend and getting married. I'm just not worried about that right now, it's like totally not a priority for me at the moment. Honestly it's not really a priority at all for me. I kind of like being single it's nice not having to worry about anyone else and being able to just take care of yourself and what not. You know where your money is going and most of the time it's on things you want or like to do. You know, if I find a guy that sweeps me off my feet then maybe I will consider getting married. Oh and don't get me started on kids, that's the other thing. I'm not too sure I actually want kids, they are cute and all but boy are they a lot of work. My cousin has twin girls and I've been in their life since day one, so I've been able to watch them grow up. My family tends to watch them quite often so the mom (my cousin) can go out, so I know what it is like having kids. It is a lot of work, they take a lot of effort and exhaust you.

I would love to travel yet in my lifetime, so having a family isn't really ideal to me yet. There are so many places that I would love to travel to but I can't do that with kids and a husband who may or may not like to travel. Anyway enough with my little rants, I will go and continue to wait for my future life letter so to speak.

Peace & Love

Mothers

First of all, let me just wish all the mothers a very happy Mother's Day! I hope that you all enjoy your day and get some rest! Now I wasn't sure how I was going to write this blog because honestly I haven't been a huge fan of my mom my whole life. Growing up from years birth to about 12 I had always been a daddy's girl. I would always choose him over my mom for anything. Now it's not like I disliked my mom because I didn't I just wasn't as close to her as I was to my dad. I didn't start getting close to her until after my dad passed away and I had no one else to be with really. At first I didn't like her because she took my freedom away, since I had to help out with my sister a lot more then. I couldn't do a whole lot with my friends after school because I had to watch my sister, and on weekends I was usually working. So through out high school I was kind of distant from my mother since she kind of took my childhood away from me. At the time I didn't really realize why she had to do this, but now I understand and I wish I wasn't so harsh on her in those years.

After I graduated from high school, my mom and I started to become closer. I was growing up and needed advice about jobs, college, etc. and she was there for me. We started to hang out more, go shopping together, go to dinner, see a movie that kind of stuff. It was nice to be able to have someone I could look up to and relay on them to help me if I needed anything. At this point my sister and I used to become closer too, we started to hang out more often as well.

Now I am super close to my mom and wouldn't know what to do with out her in my life. She is one of my best friends and I can tell her anything. I consider her one of my role models because I don't know if I could have done what she did after my dad died. She literally just picked up her life and continued on, she knew she had to get done what she needed to and that's what helped her. She now raises my sister and I on a part time salary and we get by. Money is sometimes tight in my house but we survive, we always do. So I dedicate this post to my mother who has always been there for me, even if I didn't want anything to do with her. She is an amazing women and I hope to be just as amazing as her when I get older. So thanks mom for everything that you have done for me, I really appreciate it! Love you!

Bucket List

Yup everyone has their list of things they want to do/accomplish before they die. I honestly haven't given much thought about it but maybe I should. With all this talk about the world coming to an end soon, everyone has their own opinions about when the world is coming to an end, personally I hope it's soon! So here is my top ten things I would like to accomplish before I die in no particular order:

1. Visit Alaska: I have always wanted to go on an Alaskan cruise. I love the scenery of the snow covered mountains and the ice glaciers, well from what I've seen in photographs anyway. I want to stay in a little log cabin house on the mountains over looking a lake, pond, ocean, some kind of water. I just think that would be amazing in itself and I would feel like I'm already in heaven. Of course I would only go there in the summer, I don't want to be freezing the whole time I'm there.

2. Get a husky: For those of you who don't know me, I am seriously obsessed with huskies. I would love to have one of my own and raise it from puppy to adult. I have no real remembrance of when my obsession began or what started it but it has blossomed into this big loving adoration. Whenever I see a husky on the street being walked I usually have to go and say hi to it. I just think they are beautiful creatures and I would be honored to call one my own.

3. Write my life story in book form: I have been through a lot in my life and I feel as though I should share it with the world. Opening this blog is part of that reason, and for my own personal journal. I am sure everyone has their life story and they should, but I think mine is very story like. I always would say to myself this would only happen in a book. I believe that my readers would laugh, cry, get angry right along with me as they are reading the happenings of my life. As a promise to my future potential readers; I will not leave a single bit of information out no matter how hard it is for me to relive it.

4. Learn to dance: I wish I could dance I should probably say. I always love watching dancing movies like Step Up and I don't know but there are others out there. I just want to go out on the dance floor and shake what the good lord gave me, or something like that. I really would love to take hip hop dance lessons and be able to show off at the next wedding or dance party I attend.

5. Learn to play the guitar: My dad played the guitar while he was living and would try to teach me but I was never interested. Given this was back when I was 10 or 11 years old. However, now I would love to learn how to play but my loving father is no longer with us *RIP Dad* and I am sure if he was still living he would have already taught me how to play. I still own his guitar, it's standing behind my chair in its case. I do take it out every now and then and clean it up, try to play it, give up and put it right back where it was before. Some day I will learn how to play it so when people ask me why do I have a guitar, I can show them how I am a awesome guitar player.

6. Visit the moon: Of course this is one that may not happen, but I can wish right? I don't know what it is about the moon and its galaxy but it's so fascinating to me. I love stars, I always have and probably always will. I love looking up at the stars and just thinking or not thinking. It's one of those things where you wonder what really is up there and how far is it really from you. I would love to just be on the moon looking down  at earth and being able to say that I was that much closer to the stars. I promise if I ever do make it to the moon, I will take loads of pics for Facebook and bring back some moon cheese :)

7. Go on an African Safari: I want to see elephants, and giraffes and other African animals up close and personal. Just thinking about it makes me want to go even more. I see pictures and videos about people going on safaris and I envy them so much. Animals are such a mysterious thing to me, they each have their unique characteristics and behaviors. No one animal is exactly alike and I love that, I just want to go see animals in their natural environments and take loads of pictures.

8. Open my own photography business: This at one point was going to be my career, until I realized that it would cost more to open it then it would bring in. I have been taking pictures for most of my life now. Most everyone who knows me, knows that I am a photographer. I usually just take photos at friends' events for free just because I like to. I would love to have my own dark room but with film photography becoming non existent, that dream is slowly vanishing. I do however would love to have my own photography studio where I can take digital photos and showcase my work.

9. Fall in love: It's easy to say but to actually seriously fall in love with someone is very hard to do. You have to give your whole self to this other person and hope that they don't break you. It's a very scary feeling to love someone so much that you would do anything and I mean anything for them. I want to be able to feel love, not that high school love where you tell your boyfriend/girlfriend you love them after your first kiss or date or whatever. I'm talking about that serious romantic adult love that people fall into when they find their soul mates.

10. Go on a major shopping spree: To be able to go into all my favorite stores and buy whatever I want at the time and not have to worry about price or if I have enough money to get it. I want to come out of the mall with 100 bags and feel as though I have truly shopped. Now with this economy the way it is right now, this goal of mine probably won't happen for a very long time. I just want to be able to shop with out having to count how much money I have left and without worrying about how much I'm paying for an item. If I like then I buy it, that's the plan.

So there you have it, my top 10 things I would like to accomplish before I die. Some of these things are more achievable then others but I still would love to be able to say on my death bed that I accomplish most or all of these things. So what's on your bucket list?

May 15th

Yup so thats when I should find out if I got into this PTA program I applied for. I have a mix of emotions right now. A little bit of scared, nervous, excited, all of the above lol. I'm scared because what if I don't get accepted then I really have to find something else to do with my life. It's all coming down to just 13 days and it's so surreal like this is it this is when I find out what my future will hold. I'm going to be so nervous now every time I go to the mailbox. It's going to be like dun dun dun lets see what I get today.

Ugh I'm so like nervous I guess, my mom is so excited but I just can't get excited because I feel as though if I let myself get too excited to find out then when I do find out and I don't make it in I'm going to be super bummed and be depressed and stuff. I honestly am going to be a basket case if I don't make it into this program. I have no idea what I'm going to do with myself if I don't make it. I mean yeah I have a couple of options but nothing like this. I guess we will have to see. I will let you know as soon as I find out.

*Go with Peace and Love*